Swimming Upstream

Swimming Upstream

Sometime after I set out on this journey
it was clear I would be swimming upstream
why then am I surprised
at the currents carrying me the other way?
Currents inside me
and
currents outside me.

Did I think the forces of anger
would subside and suddenly
start helping me?

Did I think the world I decided to go against
would suddenly turn around
and support me?

Did I think that by swimming a few laps
I would suddenly relinquish
what the world has to offer?

Swimming upstream
trying to avoid
falling down a waterfall
I pine for fruits on the shore
downstream.